Lehrein....

Lehrein (Waves)

khoyi khoyi si hoon main
kyun ye dil ka haal hai
dhundhle saare khaab hain
uljha har khayaal hai
saari kaliyaan murjha gayin
rang unke yaadon mein reh gaye
saare gharonde ret ke,
lehrein aayin lehron mein beh gaye.

raah mein kal kitne charaag the,
saamne kal phoolon ke baag the
kis se kahun kaun hai jo sune,
kaante hi kyun maine hain chune
sapne mere kyun hain kho gaye
jaage hain kyun dil mein gham naye
saari kaliyaan murjha gayin
rang unke yaadon mein reh gaye
saare gharonde ret ke,
lehrein aayin lehron mein beh gaye.
Na na na na na na..
Na na na na na na…
Kya kahun kyun ye dil udaas hai
ab koi door hai na paas hai
chhoo le to dil wo baatein ab kahan
wo din kahan raatein ab kahan
jo beeta kal hai ab khwab sa
ab dil mera hai betaab sa
saari kaliyaan murjha gayin
rang unke yaadon mein reh gaye
saare gharonde ret ke,
lehrein aayin lehron mein beh gaye.....

Listening to the song from the movie Aisha for the nth time.... the lyrics and the music is growing in me... i just  love the sound of violin.... it makes my heart grow fonder of memories....sweet n not so sweet....I love the way the voice of anusha mani croons the lines with so much of flow of emotions....probably... this is one song which has made me feel the sadness after a long time... off late i keep away from such songs ...unlike in my school and college days when sad songs were something I loved more than the happy songs.... it always made me feel happier  than probably the happy songs....well... well.. no past honking.... saare gharaunde ret ke...lehrein aayi lehreino mein beh gayi...and another line that i like is kisse kahun kaun hai jo sune...kante hi maine kyu chune.... my pfalsafa of life starts brooding over and pouring over with thoughts.....of cause n effect ... cause at the fundamental level and not the superficial level.....which change our life and probably shape our life.... was wondering I wish I could be positive thinker al thru my life ......its so difficult to think good all the time... negatives just come by and stays by... but positive phew it takes all your effort to be with you and grow in u.....

I was thinking I didn’t like the movie Aisha at all and I don’t remember the song at all...and suddenly ... i listened to this song and i just loved it and will be in love for some time ....i was realising that life is moment to moment ... things which I just didn’t like few months back is something I am growing fond of... its strange but true.... thats y they say never say never.... also, I realised that this unexpectedness of my life makes it so much fun... and I like that part which takes me by surprise ... !!! I wish life has all the positive surprises stored for me!!!

Identity (crisis) and dreams beneath the darkness of the heart!!

Life has been on the fast lane for some time...with work, other activities, Spanish classes on weekends...I have been running in my mind each day but somehow I am unable to figure out what exactly am I looking for. With too many ifs and buts in my head...I feel over the last six months I have been wanting to achieve a lot and have been constantly falling down and trying to get up.

I was wondering about goals in life. I was never a person who would plan things in ahead and so far it has always worked for me but when I look back I feel I cud have achieved much more than what I have if had planned things out little more with thoughts put in.

But I have always been an impromptu person and not a schemer in mind...For me personal goals such as happiness, family, friends, heart to heart chat were more important than probably being CEO of a company and I always thought u can achieve either at the cost of other. May be I was right or maybe wrong i.e I just limited by thoughts and henceforth my actions to realise my true potential.

Sometimes I feel being ‘not satisfied’ and ‘being greedy’ is good, u actually persevere to get to things which you felt were unachievable and  in the course u spend the talents the universe has bestowed you with....Sometimes when I am too focussed in life (which is a rarity) I achieve everything that I set out to.... but this phase is too short in my life to mention its significance...But I so much wish such a phase was my entire life where I would be kicked about goals in life and about achieving them.

While writing this, I am actually able to feel my ‘quieter side’ who wants to make a point always to the side which is known to the world. It is like a checker of my thoughts always....It wants to live its own individuality and do things and not get limited by societal or any other kind of restrictions....but it is scared of being left alone ....we follow the crowd probably because of the feeling what if I am left alone...

Sometimes I feel what I am currently doing is because that is the easiest and safest way to go about things and this is not what it should with me because I have always thought things from the other side of the view and not what people think it is correct....I have always loved the rule breakers ...people who made their presence felt in their own possible way...the name that comes to my mind now is Assange...dont know the ethics part ...but his ways shook the world and made us sit up and think!!!...another person whom I like to mention is Gandhi....these days its fashion to bring him down and talk the negatives that he did. But I like that man becoz of his belief in himself, the courage to coin a concept and reach his goal using that concept. Yes, he had many flaws and I guess it was reinstatement of the fact that he is human being and yet he had the strength of the universe to unite the then India to come together for one cause independence.....and thats the part I like about him ...his confidence and conviction in his own philosophy...and I feel I lack that somewhere in my life... on the eve of independence day  I wish could be more independent of my own wrong perceptions and false imaginations of so called realities of life...  AMEN!!!

Sleepaholic...zzzzzz!!!!!

Sleep…a relieving word for many ..post lunch more so!!!I think that’s why I have loved Garfield always …

 His droopy eyes were very comforting to my inner soul somewhere…

I am trying hard to take away my attention from my bouts of sleep attack , but the very shrewd nature of it dodges me time n again!!!, it just seeps in to make me feel the softness of a bed and comfortingness of my snuggling into the blankets .

I was wondering …if it is soooo common to all human species , then why do we withheld ourselves of getting a small nap in the afternoon… Chinese , Spanish , Latin American countries do so,,, why don’t we follow suit. Also, the compelling nature of the nature’s call and other calls are allowed but not the most decent one!!! Huh… this is what I call hypocrisy!!! Total double standardness     !!!

It has been scientifically proved that sleep post lunch reduces the human o/t and productivity and leads to error prone work… Now tell me is this justified??? If we are not well… we are ready to sick leave, so If we are sleepy why do we deny the right to sleep ????I wish somebody could make a national rule of sleeping post lunch in all the private and public offices from Kanyakumari to Kashmir….

 I know…I am talking under the impact of the drug called sleep!!! But I feel I am still making some sense !!!..What say????